C E Hoffman

May I Live On In Love and Literature

Category: Quotes

Kickstarter Update: Day 11

“When do I become who I am?”

Simple Creatures

All my life, I wanted to skip to the finish line.

That magical age where I “made it”, and thus, things made sense.

The finish line is an illusion.

Life is all journey, no destination.

There’s no pinnacle or project that will solve everything.

But every project is worth something.

This short film probably won’t change the world. But it could change a person, or at least their day, for the better.

That’s why we create.

That’s what makes the journey worth it.

We’ve reached our fundraising goal!

Any extra (apart from a $200 emergency fund) will be donated to sex worker organizations.

Donate here.

Podcast: No Life Skills

Ashlynn of the No Life Skills podcast asked me beautiful questions and held incredible space.

Give it a listen and Subscribe to the podcast!

Some of my fav moments:

“The prostitute archetype is ancient and empowering. It has the potential to revivify but also threatens to dismantle a lot.”

“I understand people’s motivations for stereotyping and oversimplification, but even so, that’s not a place we can remain if we want to evolve as a species.”

“Real life people are complicated and silly and contradictory and interesting and that isn’t all automatically negated because someone’s a sex worker.”

“No simple answers, no simple questions, no simple anything.”

Buy Sluts and Whores here.

Stay Creative!

💕C

Review #1! {Stuff About Connection}

“What I hope my writing reflects is a sense of the connections between all human beings.”

-Chris Crutcher

Typesetters has honoured Sluts and Whores with its inaugural review!

I cannot thank this reviewer enough! They were attentive, communicative, and truly care about writers.

Their words were so sincere, I cried happy tears. 💕

A review like this reminds me why I write.

By sharing my soul, I want to help others connect with theirs.

By revealing my hurts, I hope people will be inspired to face their own.

Success is about connections. And I am so grateful to have made a connection with Typesetters.

Read the full review here, and be sure to follow Typesetters on Twitter!

Stay Creative!

💕C

Latest Podcast!: Mommy Needs a Drink

I am DELIGHTED!

My dear friend Tara Henderson (an exceptional creator) invited me on to her podcast.

This is my first ever podcast appearance! I was honoured- and nervous.

The result: extreme vulnerability, and, I hope, valuable content. 💕

Listen here.

(Highlights:

“Sex workers are the frontline workers of the soul.”

“Art should be an antidote to bullshit.”

“When I think of the sex workers I’ve had the honour of knowing… they’re some of the most brave, beautiful, passionate, intelligent, quirky, weird-ass people I’ve ever met. And I am so grateful, and so indebted to all of them, to have been reminded it doesn’t matter what society says about you. You are f*cking beautiful, and you are worthwhile, and you’re complicated, and you’re hurting and you’re healing and you’re human. And I really hope that anyone… who reads this book feels a little bit more in contact with their humanity afterwards.” )

Buy Sluts and Whores here.

C 💕

Book/Trailer Release! {Stuff About Resilience}

“Am I the one on the throne or or a wannabe?” 

-Simple Creatures

“It’s easy to attack and destroy an act of creation. 

It’s a lot more difficult to perform one.”

-Chuck Palahniuk 

Sluts and Whores is officially released by Thurston Howl Publications. 

After all these years, my dream has materialized.
And I don’t feel like I thought I would. 

Life does not consist of peaks and valleys, but incremental steps towards either. 

It would have been folly to elect this publication the panacea for my human condition. 

All the same, I thought I’d feel good! 

To explain this incongruent mood, I have to divulge a matter of some embarrassment. 

Our Zoom book launch, which I, perhaps naively, kept very public, was invaded by a nasty hoard of hackers who did their utmost to derail an otherwise beautiful event. 

Me and my MC managed to boot the hecklers, and the show went on, as it must, but for me, the damage was done. 

I received sympathy from performers and attendees alike, but no amount of support can outweigh the burden of a neurotic mind. 

I put immense effort, not only into this book, but the event itself. I recruited some of the most talented artists I know, reached out to hundreds of family, friends, and acquaintances, and invested ample time into my least favoured element of the modern writing career: promotion.  

All that energy expended to create one impermanent piece of paradise, and the demons still invaded. 

Some people live to tear others down. 

Technology only enables their enmity. 

The internet is the Wild West of the Psyche. Anything goes; accountability is scarce. 

This virtual reality has risen from ubiquitous to essential, not only in our daily communications, but concerning our very sense of self. 

Whether or not we want to admit it, total Clicks, Likes or Views become a barometer of failure. 

We differentiate the winners from the losers, the “winners” accumulating inconceivable exposure.

Meanwhile, those who have 1000 views, or 100, or 12, require immense security to avoid feeling they have failed to be seen, and perhaps, by proxy, loved. 

When did we conclude that More = Better? 

Even if “more” is meaningless. 

Even if “more” unearths robots, trolls, and monsters.

I want to reach as many people as I can, to open their minds and stimulate their imaginations. 

That’s an influence no Like button can measure. 

In some ways, hate won this round. On the other hand, hate will never win- not as long as we insist on loving ourselves, each other, and the goals that make life rich. 

I understand hateful people more than I’d like to admit. They are in Hell, and want to drag others into Hell with them. 

I’ve had my share of Hell. (I still get weekend passes.) 

The difference between me and them: I don’t want to spread Hell around. 

My aim is to help people get out. 

May my words serve as rough road maps to the soul. 

May the story of my scars aid others in navigating their hearts’ mazes. 

I don’t care how many Likes I receive, or how many demons crash my party. No matter the rain, I’ll march in my parade. 

I’m going to write, create, and dare to do what haters can’t. 

Buy Sluts and Whores here

C 💕

Merch REVEAL! {Stuff About Worthiness}

“You get to make your life.”-Cheryl Strayed 

Brave Enough by Cheryl Strayed inspired me to write (and live) fiercely

In the Intro, she mentions the surprised flattery of having her quotes sold on pillows. 

I wrote in my diary, 

“Oh, to have a pillow made with one of my quotes!!!” 

Now that I have Teespring store, I made that come true for myself. 

Don’t wait for someone to decide you’re worthy. 

Validate your worth first. 

💕C

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Happy NYE! {Stuff About Love}

“For as long as I can remember I’ve hated myself. 

Believed I’d never be loved.”

-Elton, Rocketman 

I sent out a flurry of Xmas cards this year. 

I’ve moved back in with my folks; my mum had a stack of empty Hallmarks begging to be sent. 

I wasn’t expecting anything back. The thought of friends near and far opening real, tangible expressions of love is more than enough for me. 

Much to my surprise, I’ve been getting cards! I’ve placed them on my vanity in my room, and today, when I looked at them, I cried. 

Giving is wonderful; getting is great.
True Love is reciprocal. 

If I want to manifest the love I so long for, I have to let people in. Be honest; be vulnerable. I have to build trust, and, if intimacy allows, be bold enough to show my scars. 

I never thought I’d make it this far. I’m sure a lot of you know how that feels. 

I’m sure some of you reading this have tried to end it, or wanted to. 

I want you to know that I love you. 

I hope that today is the day you’ll start letting love in. 

Believe me when I say love is everywhere.
Even when you don’t expect it. 

Happy NYE. 

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